By Have you ever had one of those days? I’m tired today and have managed to get a migraine, which is made worse by staring at a computer screen. There were times when I would yell at myself (not out loud) like a drill sergeant to push through the pain. I feel incredibly guilty when I slack off from work…such as taking some personal time when I have a headache. I am trying to be kinder to myself these days. After all, I am an independent consultant so I am responsible for my calendar. It is my choice.
For years/decades my approach to work was more more more. And the reward for this philosophy was 1) more work and 2) health issues. When I don’t take care of myself a few things happen: 1) I make unhealthy food choices which makes me feel bad and causes weight gain; 2) I drink more than I should, which makes me feel bad and causes weight gain; and 3) my blood pressure increases. I only started having high blood pressure issues in the last few years. Of course no one notices when their blood pressure increases…but simply put there are really bad health consequences from high blood pressure.
So why do I work like a fool? Frankly because I’m a people pleaser. And somehow I have associated locking myself to my laptop as something that would be praised.
I am not one for looking back. I try to stay focused forward…but if I could turn back time (queue Cher song), I would tell my younger self to not be such a workaholic. And so I tell you, my dear readers: to take a breath, listen to your body and know that work is work and it will always be there.
So today’s post is short (but the guilt was too strong for me to not post something). I’m going to recharge my batteries.
And for your entertainment in the meantime, here is our Christmas concert from a couple of weeks ago: http://www.rumc.com/christmas
